Loser of the Year : Chapter 2.2

With graduation right around the corner and my grandmother out of town I couldn’t help but throw an all-night party. Even though I may have been labeled as an outcast, I knew no one would turn down a party invite. I was fidgety mostly because Lucus said he would love to come. Of course I knew Josh would show up so I was hoping like crazy there wasn’t going to be any issues. Also I for sure wanted to make a statement fashion wise, but with pretty much nothing to wear and hardly any friends with fashion sense I was out of luck. That is until I remember all those fancy clothes that were in my grandmothers dresser.

I was curious on what exactly what my grandma kept in them and hoped like crazy maybe something decent to wear. So I gladly took the liberty of helping myself through her dresser. My hands froze on a box that was labeled Lucy. Sucking in a breath I opened it to find it full of my mother’s jewelry. I couldn't bring myself to take any of the precious gems. Placing it aside it made me wonder if the contents of this part of the dresser was my mothers. Rummaging through it I smiled when I felt slinky fabric beneath my fingers. It was perfect. Trying my best I shoved everything back in the way they should have been and hoped my grandma wouldn’t even notice.

With the party starting up in a few hours, I primped and finally got dressed. I was glad that the dress fit perfectly showing off every curve that I had. Hopefully I didn’t look like I was trying too hard. When the first kids started to arrive Lucus walked in… with another girl. Why did even get my hopes up the he would actually be single. She was perfect in every way; glossy platinum blonde hair, perfect curves, and gorgeous blue eyes. Beating myself inside I plastered on a smile when he looked my way.

Half stopping in his tracks he looked me up and down once again and shook his head as if he thought he was dreaming. That’s a good thing right? The sudden urge to make him jealous peaked into my head when Josh walked through the door. Sure Josh was a creep on the level ten factors, but at least I knew he liked me.

Putting attitude in my hips I swayed past him and pretty much threw myself at Josh. Catching him off guard his eyes about bugged out of his eyes when he saw what I was wearing.
“Well look who finally came to their senses.” He smirked his typical smirk which made me want to gag. “Don’t you just look sassy tonight?” Wrapping his arm around my waist he led me to the couch.

I might be playing with fire, but it certainly got Lucus’ attention. Whenever I looked up from the conversation with Josh he was somewhere near by watching. Feeling slightly uncomfortable when Josh squeezed me closer I finally got a hint of his full intentions. He leaned over just as I looked at him and pressed his lips against mine.

Startled I jumped from his arms. “What do you think you’re doing?” I stepped back as he looked at me with utter confusion on his face.

“I thought you wanted to? You know you pretty much threw yourself at me right when I walked in the door. Sending a guy the wrong signals isn’t a good thing. Especially me.”

“You know what Josh? I only did it to make Lucus jealous okay. I like him not you. Get that through your head why don’t you? Now just get out of my house!”

I hadn’t realized that I drew the attention of the crowd until I heard everyone murmuring. Embarrassed I shook my head on the verge of tears and ran into my room. I didn’t really care if they stayed. I knew they would all leave when they wanted to. The pulsing beats of the music vibrated through my walls and I could hear people laughing on the other side.

Upset I leaned up against the door wishing they would all just shut up. I felt like an idiot as it was, and frankly I felt stupid for having my first kiss with Josh. I wanted to share that with someone special not some creep. A light knock on my door startled me making me jump out of my skin.
“Umm Kaybree, can I talk with you?” Not recognizing the voice I cracked the door open to reveal miss platinum blonde herself. Great what could she want? She probably wanted to cuss me out me out for crushing on her boyfriend.

“Yea I suppose.” I let her in and shut the door once again. “What do you want to talk about? It’s not like I don’t already feel stupid for saying I was crushing on your boyfriend.” She gave me an odd look and started to laugh.

“Kaybree, Lucus isn’t my boyfriend. Hun he’s just a really good friend of mine. I don’t go for guys anyways. My name’s Becca by the way.” Confused for a bit it hit me. She was a lesbian…. Plopping down on the bed next to her I smiled.

“So then why is it you wanted to talk to me?” She rolled her eyes at me and laughed again. Frustrated I rose my eyebrow at her and gave her my best just spit it out look.

“Okay, okay fine I’ll tell you. Kaybree, Lucus has a thing for. Heck he has since he first moved here at the beginning of high school. He’s one of those overly shy guys. Well that is until you get to know him. Then you just can’t get him to shut up.” My heart soared into my throat as she continued to talk. “But that’s beside the point. See here when he say Josh full on out kiss you on the couch he left. Upset might I add.” Feeling my heart fall back down I frowned.

“I ruin everything.” I sighed and she placed her hand on my shoulder. Maybe if I was more blunt on telling him I liked him or even gave him more signs then maybe that could have been him I was kissing on the couch.

“No you don’t hun, he wasn’t even aware you liked him. Though I had to stay back and get your side of things. I kind of got the hint you were trying to make him jealous, but he obviously didn’t. I suggest you text him or heck maybe even call him so you can sort things out.” The door slammed closed and she frowned. “Sounds like everyone just left.”
Shrugging I sighed.

“I don’t care.” She gave me a big hug and stood up. “Now you don’t be a stranger. You seem pretty chill, text me sometime okay?” She flipped a paper at me before she walked out of my bedroom door. Scratching my nose I peeked out in the living room to find everyone had left. Checking all the rooms to double check no one else was around I locked the door and dressed into my pjs. I was nervous, I didn’t want to seem to forward, so maybe I would just talk to him at graduation in a couple of days to let him cool off.